clock June 13, 2012
author Chris Sopa

I’m About To Lose Control…And I Think I Like It!!

Life begins at the end of your comfort zone.” ~Neale Donald Walsch

Ok…I admit it…I used to be a HUGE control freak!  Those of you who know me are probably saying, “What do you mean USED to be!?” but I have come a long, long way!  My stomach used to literally be in knots (which caused me to acquire a severe condition of chronic ulcerative colitis) trying to predict the outcome of everything…what would happen, what people would think or say, what each minute of my day needed to look like, etc.  I spent every minute of my life trying to plan and control it.  Sounds fun, doesn’t it?

At the age of 32 I literally almost died from trying so hard to control my life.  Ironic, isn’t it, that how God got my attention was through a disease that I couldn’t control?  What better way to learn the lesson of letting go than that!  When I was recovering from my illness, I had to learn who I was again because I had lost myself somewhere in the hustle and bustle of my “controlled” world.  I had to learn to trust the process of life and most of all trust myself…my feelings AND my thinking.  I needed to let go of worry…especially worrying about what others thought of me.  And most of all, I had to learn to forgive myself for my mistakes…past AND future.  I re-defined “mistakes” in my mind to “learning experiences” and a chance for a “do over.”  I stopped beating myself up for past misgivings and re-committed to doing the best I could in the future, making different choices.  I knew I wouldn’t be perfect but I did know that if I was coming from a good place in my heart I would be giving each situation in my life the best and that was all I could ask for.

I now live my life in a way that most people think is “risky.”  Do I take risks?  Sure. (Like moving my entire life 3000 miles across the country!)  But what I have learned is that each new day brings new and beautiful miracles with it.  If I allow myself to “go with the flow” of life; whether it is a day I am super energized and in a good mood or a day I am tired, cranky and feeling sorry for myself (that was yesterday!  Lol!), I find that everything I desire and need falls at my feet.  I stay present and try not to future or past think…I actually try not to think AT ALL!  I trust that no matter what happens, good or bad, it is for a Divine purpose and is ultimately for my highest good.  I let go of the oars of life and let the natural flow of the stream of life take me where it knows I need to be.  And most of all…I BELIEVE that what I desire, no matter what it is, is already here.  I feel it with every bone in my body and live like I already have it.  If we want to manifest in our lives those things we want so desperately, we have to be “vibrating” (which translates to where your attention and thoughts are mostly) on the same level as what we want or it will never come in.  Most of the time we are vibrating to the tune of what we don’t want and then wonder why those things always show up!

Take some time today to let go of the oars of your life.  Allow life to turn the page for you instead of needing to have your hand in it to control it.  Take a breath and focus on only those things you want in your life and watch how life then steers you right toward them…no questions asked.  Every prayer is answered…we are just not in control of how or in what form the answer shows up.  Trust!

“You can’t get to happily ever after without turning the page.”  ~Doug Kirchhofer

Letting life turn my page,


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